| yet another update, in over a month! |
[Jun. 30th, 2007|11:03 pm] |
Now as many of you might realize, I don't update too much. heh. But when I feel like it, I come up to write a bit. Nothing's gone on much recently, that's why I don't talk on lj much anymore. Ah well, here's the update.
Not much is going on, other than the doubts have apparently, so far decided to stop bugging me. They're still in my mind, but less so. Yet again, thank God for those two. So precious, so priceless. Friends and sisters, have become Amy or Christy. Err.. vice versa. I can't think right now, brain's getting sleepy.
New Worlds. What an interesting MUD! Been going on more often as school's out and I can roleplay more. Roleplaying is fun, though it can be intesne. How many people were getting drunk in the tavern today... six, maybe seven? Wow it was good. hehehe. Haruki needs to get more imune to grogs... drinking them provokes somewhat of an extreme reaction. heh. Oh well. Then there was an invasion. What an invasion it was too... Almost got killed twice. Two orks, killed both with the help of others. Would've been flattened if it wasn't for others helping me out by being decoys. lol. Got help my health riped off pretty much in about 4 seconds flat by one ork, then once I had recovered, by the second. whew. What a game. I love it though. Amy and Christy've got me hooked on something again. argh. Those two need to stop. lol. First it was certain music artists, now the game. What's next? lol.
In other news.. I'm sick. Been sick all week. Feever, and now I have a bit of a sore throat. What a way to start summer...
Going to go. Tired, and I want sleep. lol. Later all. |
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| Hey hey |
[May. 26th, 2007|12:06 am] |
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Wow. Why have I not updated in such a long time? I don't know. been too lazy, I guess. Doubts are back to haunt me again... ic. But... here's my question. Why am I talking to friends online about online troubles, and arranging to meet these people in person? Ahrrgghh! I am confused. Looking forward to next year, because I get to meet the two best friends I have, in terms of a close connection and friendship. No, nothing romantic, but a very close friendship I share with noone else. Maybe it's just because these two have so much common with me... Amy and Christy are both Christians as I am, both love music, both talk about deep stuff, and all three of us can be here for each other at whatever times. It's so good... so why am I having these doubts? I don't know. Something random. I'm not exactly sure what it is, but I know it's something. haha. Sigh. Just going to figure it out, as time comes. Looking forward to next year, but kind of scared too... what if something goes wrong? What if they don't turn out to be the people they said they are, etc, etc? But for now... I'm greatful to God for both of them, for two people I can share experiences with, talk about spiritual stuff, or be silly with. Either way, these two are great people... and I thank God that Amy and I had the chance to meet, because it's formed such a deep thing, and something so precious and priceless. I can't find another friendship like this, like the one I share with Amy and Christy. It's so unique, and so meaningful. And we'll get through these doubts... as we have everything else, together, and what comes will come.
Done rambling about that now. Just have to say how much I appreciate it. Onto what's been going on reecently. On Monday I actually went on Newworlds for a while, because I felt like it. My roleplay character's name on Newworlds is Haruki. Why Haruki? Well, if you want to know, either comment and ask or e-mail / IM. I can say that it's partly because I love Japanese. I debated between Makoto and Haruki, because those two both fit me. Okay.. I gave it away. Haruki means, "shining brightly." That's what I try to be, for my friends who go through dark times. I try to be the best light I can possibly, and to shine as brightly as I can, to help my friends, and be there for them. Like when January, a certain friend was going through hard times... the friend knows who she is. I was there for her as much as I could be, because the person she usually talks to was having out-of-controll feelings, and it would've been hard. I am simply glad that I was trusted so deeply, and I can never abuse that trust...
Yesterday, I was talking to Christy, about random things. Partly about the doubts situation, and a lot of other stuff. When we talked about random things, we came onto the subject of what makes us each the most furious possible. Turns out it was the same thing... no surprise. Abuse of anyone, physical, emotional or otherwise. Or, when a friend has been hurt, again, physically, emotionally or otherwise. Those things are both thinggs I can't, and I mean can't, tollerate. If a friend gets insulted, let alone a close friend, and if I know the person who insulted them, there is no way in heck they are getting away with it. Why not? Because you don't insult my friends, or hurt them like that. You just don't. And this is something we couldn't even comtemplate doing to each other... our friendship is too precious to do that kind of thing. At least, in my eyes...
Going to take off now. Gotta try and get some sleep. lol. Later. |
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| feeling greatful |
[May. 12th, 2007|11:40 pm] |
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Thoughts were more jumbbled today. Thank God for Christy and Amy... what would I do without those two? Aside from Tanya, they were the best things God gave me that year... 2006, that is. They're both so good to me... and so caring. The day I asked Amy about surgery was a blessing... because that gave me the first true close friend I ever had. My thoughts were crazy today. Doubts, fears and uncertainties... fear of what would happen if I pushed Amy and Christy away on an impulse... but thanks to Amy and christy, I'm dealing with it. Feeling so greatful they're here, means so much. I will do everything in my power to make sure this friendship stays strong and grows... because this is a friendship I never, ever want to lose, because I can never have one like this again... if I lost it. Hugs to you both, thank you for everything, for being the kind friend and sisters you both are. |
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| back again |
[May. 2nd, 2007|07:08 pm] |
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Well, it's about time I updated. lol. Thought I would beat Christy to it. hehe.
What's been going on this weekend...? well, let's see. Doubts again. On Friday I did an o and m lesson. On the way back, the person I was doing it with said something about the whole thing about parents not wanting to have msn. Then my instructor was talking about online predators and such. That was triggering, because I have two online sisters I would tell anything. So, the doubts came. On Saturday, and this is the ironic thing, I talked to Amy about them. Interesting, yeah.. and Christy too. Ironic, though it was online friends I was worried about, it was online friends I held the discussion with. For the next day or two I was completely down about the whole thing. So many what iffs, questions, fears and things like that.. but thank goodness for Christy, Amy and Victoria. I talked to all three at one point or another, and it helped so much.. today, I reached my decision. I'm going to believe, because that's what I know is true... and what I believed, deep down. I just wasn't sure. One of the most horrifying thoughts I could think at the time was, what if I chose to doubt, not to believe, and push them away... but they were genuine? I know how they would both feel... what if I made the wrong decision? That went on for a good few days. Now, all is well in that regard. I'm just nervous about the phone bill, to put it mildly. My Mom told me it was free until the end of june, but things can change. So, she'll most likely flip out at me. But nothing I'm not used to.. but I'm still worried. It's damaging to hear that kind of stuff all the time. But at least I have people I can talk to about it afterwards. I shouldn't've called so much, but it's so much better than msn... in some ways. Meh. I'll deal with it as it comes... |
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| What right do relatives have to force you to do things.. |
[Apr. 20th, 2007|09:30 am] |
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I got ranted at this morning, again. I have no school today, but my brother does, so he woke up. I can't sleep late on weekdays, I don't know what it is. Even on weekends, I wake up early. Not something I can help. My brother went down stairs to eat and whatnot, and ten minutes later my Aunt walks in and sees me on the computer... and rants, or rather, shouts again. The equivalent to what she said would be, "what the hell are you doing up right now! You stayed up til friggin 2:00 last night, you should sleep later! Besides you have no school! That computer is making you insane! Go back to bed now before I call your Mom and force you to talk to her and explain yourself!"
I'm mad now, because this is another one of those situations where I can relate to someone... I know how Amy felt, in Indiana. You don't even have the option. It's, do this, right now. Don't wait. It's not, please do this. It's, just do it, don't ask or defend yourself. Can't a kid have some space? Do my relatives have to force me to do things like that? I mean she caught me at 12:30 yesterday and said it was 1:30 to 2:00! What kind of crap is that? Trying not to use language I shouldn't, but I'm losing it. I shouldn't react like this, I know. Some call it an overreaction. Just... argh. This was always the case growing up, and now still is, as a teen. Do this, do that. Don't ask why, just do it. What right does she have to controll when I sleep or wake up? It's up to me. I know she thinks it's good for me... but it's not! Ugh... I just hate it. This is why I like tournaments so much. It's my chance to get away from it all, to be with friends, only to be governed b the time I need to wake up for games. Brantford was so good this year... why? Two reasons. I was rooming with a person I got along well with. Two, Christy gave me her phone number before I left, which, by the way, I am still very greatful for. Two reasons, really, first one being she trusted me enough to give me her number... I was gratified, and besides... It was good just to be able to call, talk to Amy and Christy, and have fun doing it. It's the place where I can feel accepted, where I can do what I want so long as it doesn't overstep the boundaries of what I should do. Goalball tournaments... are a safe place for me.
Okay. I am going to leave now, before I rant anymore than I have to, or should. Drop comments and whatnot. lol. |
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| Another day |
[Apr. 4th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
So, how has my day been? Half and half. I have a terrible headache, so that's that. I'm anxious about this, because I could barely concentrate in class today. There was just a dull throbbing in my temple and pain that kept overcoming concentrating on the class, and I don't think I'll manage tomorrow. I'm anxious, because I want to stay home and get better, but will my Mom let me is the question? I'm asking tomorrow, because if I don't stay home, math is going to blow my head apart, in terms of how bad it's going to be. Ic. I have enough trouble with geometry already... with a headache? Let's not get into that. So, hoping I can stay home, at least from school. If I get enough rest during the day, that should give me enough to go to goalball in the evening. I can usually forget the headache there, because I'm hanging out with everyone else, playing, doing warmups and whatnot. So, I hope I make it. In either case, that's the headache story. Now for the part which wasn't so bad as annoying.
I was getting my ride from my aunt from school today. I had on a thicker coat, because today's weather hasn't been great, and it's been raining for the past few hours. So my Aunt starts on this whole lecture about how I'm going to freeze to death in that coat, that I should've worn a thicker coat, and some other crap. So I said that I didn't need it, that this was fine. And it was. I wasn't too warm, but I wasn't as cold as I could've been, I was in a position where I felt warm enough. So I told her. She didn't respond for a minute, then she said in a sort of challenging tone, "Your wings have become harder, I see. Just listen to what I tell you, and don't argue." Yeah, right... so I said, "look at it this way... my wings have grown stronger, yes. This means that, you won't have to lecture me as much, because I won't listen as much, unless it's somethingg worse listening to. I'm not too happy about the way you and everyone else has been hovering over me, and not giving me my independence as I need." She lost it. The only thing I heard was, well, she didn't say these exact words, but her attitude pretty much suggested the line of, "Who the hell do you think you are, talking back to me? Don't you dare talk back to me. I'm older than you, therefore smarter! After all I did for you as a kid, you're this ungreatful?" She has done a lot for me, and I'm beyond greatful. I just shrugged and turned away. No point in arguing further, I figured. I just spared her one thought. If only you know what was inside this heart... this mind... how I think every day. Noone in my family realizes who I really am, the sensative person I am. Even when I come home looking depressed and if people are home, noone spares me a glance or asks me what's wrong. Typical of them, I suppose. Parents don't like getting involved, and in any case, I'd rather go to my friends... friends understand me better.
Going to end here now. Might update tomorrow if my head permits me to. lol. Take care all.. and one more thing. All who are willing, pray for Amy. She's getting sick, and I hope it doesn't come down to something too bad. She sounded pretty bad on her voice post yesterday, so I hope it gets fixed up soon. Just pray for her, as much as you can, or are willing to. |
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| update, a lot of mixed things |
[Mar. 29th, 2007|08:40 pm] |
This week has been going alright, for a change. Thanks to all those who've been praying for me, and thank God for everything and Everyone he's given me. Amy's off in Indiana, so Christy's been bugging me all week. Not that it's a bad thing. I love it. Great person to talk to, serious business or otherwise. I love it. Spent time poking fun at Amy last Friday before she left. It was great. haha. Said her desk was a danger zone, if what she's told me is enough information. I'm one to talk. My desk is worse than hers. At least she doesn't have random bits of paper poking from under the printer or whatever. wow... I still can't believe that was there.
I've been enjoying this week. Talking to Christy being the most important thing, and school hasn't been too bad, for a change. Again, Thank God. I've been praying for the majority this week, for my friends, not for myself. And again, thanks for all those who've prayed for me. Hugs go out to those people. Hugs! K, what else...
Sometimes, I find the things I have in common with my friends amazing. Christy, for example. We're both emotional people, obviously blind.. grins, Christians, music-lovers, very fond of dogs and cats, etc. The list goes on. Wow. Maybe that's why she and Amy are such good friends, because we have so much in common. Those two are very good people, and their friendship means so much. Those are two friendships that will last for a long time, so long as both ends are willing. I know I am. lol.
I was thinking about the whole online friends thing again yesterday, about not knowing who to trust, needing to know where that catch is... it was sparked by a line I read in Harry Potter and the Chamber of secrets, and I quote:
"well that's an interesting question," said Riddle. "and quite a long story. I suppose the real reason Ginny Weasley is like this is because she opened her heart and spilled her inner-most secrets to an invisible stranger..."
That made me wonder. Who is genuine, and who is not? That was momentary, not a lasting thought. Amy and Christy are both genuine, I can confidently say. Emotional problems are hard to fake. You might be able to be convincing for about a month, but that goes away quickly. There's no way you can have a year's worth of emotional entries in lj, and be fake... just not possible, as I can see. And in addition to.. er.. other things, they just can't be faked. I'm hoping the three of us can meet sometime. apparently Christy and Amy are all for trying to come to one of our tournaments next year, so we'll see. That's one year from now. In the meanwhile, these two continue to be wonderful friends, and friends who I care very deeply for.
I just got back from practice around 8. We have a tournament in two weeks, so we're working hard. Hard is litterally hard, referring to the shots. So we're working against everything the men can throw at us. And that hurts. lol. I'm going to end here now, because I need sleep. lol. Comment or something, because I like comments. grins. Later all, and for those who need prayer, I am praying. |
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| ramblings |
[Mar. 17th, 2007|11:50 am] |
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Not much has been happening lately. Parents have been arguing again, more often than not. An argument goes on for twenty minutes none-stop, then ten minutes later, it happens again. This is what I've had to deal with for the last week. Ontop of all the tests, and having nobody to talk to. I've been building up stuff all week. Amy's had a friend over, and I didn't want to disrupt the visit. There would be no point, I didn't want her to worry. Anyway, there we are. That's what I've been doing for the last week. Tests, studying, being depressed for no good reason. Well, no good reason I can see, anyway. Parents are arguing, but that's no reason for me to be depressed, even if it's arguments involving quote and quote the kids. That's how they refer to us, because they think my sister and I don't notice. But we do. MY sister isn't as open about feelings as I am, but I know it annoys her. There's something about growing up the way I did, you learn to pick vibes up from people. I've had my blindness thrown in my face twice, by my aunt and my mom. My Mom again told me blindness is a disadvantage for life after school, and my aunt told me it wasn't safe for me to walk to the CNIB, which is like a block away, on my own. Those annoy me, a lot. Ugh.
Not much else to say. Just need my friends, and noone's around right now. I'm having an old feeling, one I've had for the last two years of my life, of feeling alone. To tell the truth, I wasn't too much of an emotional kid, until I tured 13, so around 1 year ago. Back then I have noone to talk to. And that's how it feels right now, even though I know it's not true. I just need reassurance from time to time. I'm odd that way. Going to head off now, maybe sing for a while, try to distract myself from the cloud which hangs over me. Keep those comments coming, this journal looks very empty and barren without them. |
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| term marks |
[Mar. 15th, 2007|03:46 pm] |
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Well, just got my report card for the term. Marks below:
Choir: A
Strings: A
Math: I
English: C+
Socials: b
Science: C minus
French: C
There we are. Marks for term two. Dreadful? To my Mom, that's as good as a failure. I don't know what I was expecting, but certainly better than that. Ugh... what can I say? Nothing else, just that I'm depressed. I know what's going to come. A rant, along with a threat that if I don't pull myself together this last term, I don't use the computer, or go to goalball. These are my two treasured activity. Damn! I'm trying to find words without resorting to words I shouldn't use, but... ugh. I'm going to end it here, because I can't say anything else, other than ugh, over and over again. I'm disappointed in myself, because I didn't make enough effort this term. That doesn't make it any easier. Why didn't I try harder? Why did I spend so less time on schoolwork? Why, why, why? Will this get any better? Not from the view I have right now. People, comment, or something. Going to go, and stew in misery for a while. And if you're wondering why my writing style is different, just too depressed to think of another way to write this. Sigh. God, help me through this, and help me pull myself together. Thank you, lord, for all you've given me, good or bad. Especially my friends... even though I feel like I have nobody right now, nobody to hang onto... |
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| School, and life |
[Mar. 14th, 2007|06:27 pm] |
A few tests this week. When I say this week, I mean like, in the space of four days. And a few, is actually six. That's right, six. Two french tests, a socials test, a math test, a science test and another math one. Gosh. Talk about a big test... well, this is a lot of them. Either way, I'm under a lot of pressure. sigh. Wish I had it easier. Not much to write about in here. Just glad for all the support I'm getting, from friends. Amy, Tiana and Angell, as well as Victoria, you're all priceless. I love you all. And hugs go out to all of you. Amy's having a friend visit, so I haven't talked to her in the last few days. Let me know how that's going, when you get a chance to, Amy. smiles.
A week ago, I had an issue with doubts about friendships, and one of them was about online friends. I sent an e-mail to Amy, with my thoughts, concerns, etc. Was she ever understanding. What a priceless friend... God, thank you for this gift, this friendship is something I never want to lose.
So tired. Been studying for the last few days, a lot, without stopping. Dead tired, and I have a concert to perform at in ten minutes. Going as soon as I finish this. I wouldn't go, but my teacher said if I don't go, he'd knock me one lettergrade down. Yuck. Going now, later all. Comment, or something. lol. |
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| Merry Chrstmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|03:46 pm] |
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Hey hey! That's right. It's christmas. Merry christmas to all!
Okay... I'm done now lol. Wow. Another year gone. It's amazing. God has given me so much this year, but my friends are the most important gift he has given me. Amy, Tiana, Angel, Victoria and Kaitlyn have all helped in one way or another, and all of them have done more than can be written in words. I'm very greatful to you all for being my friends, for having the patience to listen to me, and for helping me whenever I need it. I love you all.
I'm glad things've been quiet around here for a long time. Nothing bad's been going on here. Good thing, I suppose. Just gives me more time to help friends, which I love doing. I get a good feeling out of helping people. I don't know what it is, but that's just me. This year has been both good and bad, but more good than bad. Thanks to my friends, I can feel good about life most of the time, and when I feel bad, my friends are always here. Thank you all, again, and if you need anything, any of you, I'll always be here. And thank you, lord, for all you've given me this year... |
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| Two things |
[Dec. 10th, 2006|01:35 pm] |
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Hey all. Two things. First of all, my weekend's been boring. There's been nothing going on. I don't have homework, so I've just been sitting around and reading lol. Yeah sounds like me, doesn't it?
Second. It's Tanya and mine's fourth month together. We've had our own problems, but those are in the past. I met her at goalball camp, and she was, and still is, all the things I've ever wanted. I love you, Tanya, and I always will. (L) |
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| Frustrations and other things |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|07:41 pm] |
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I know noone reads this anymore anyways, but still I'm going to write a few things. lol.
Why is it that people don't treat me like a normal kid? At school, family, everywhere except for other blind people, I get treated oddly unless those people know me very well. Like at school, there are always people who go like holy crap I'm so sorry! If I so much as walk into them. I mean, heck, if I did that then I'm pretty sure noone would think I was normal. Not that I am anyways. Also, the fact that bugs me is some people don't even know what to say to me, they don't act towards me like I'm a normal kid. It's just so frustrating. Why can't sighted people see past their own standpoint and look at things from my point of view? Everyone at school has seen me walking around, and socializing with the same people every day because those are the only ones who treat me normally. Let me tell you it can get annoying after having three concecutive people say oh my god I'm so sorry! when I even so much as brush against them. Like the other day, for example. I was walking down the hall to a class, and I walked past a few girls in the hall. I brushed against one of them, ignored their reaction, and walked off. A few minutes later I hear one of the girls charging up next to me. Predictably, this is what she said. Are you okay? I'm so sorry we weren't looking out. All I did was shake my head, shrug and say sure. And then I just walked off, taking a second to pull myself together . But serously, it gets so irritating. Anyways, enough about that. Onto other things.
I had a science test on Monday, on the respiratory system. And I would've bombed it, had it not been for Amy's help. She sent me a whole bunch of notes on the system, and it helped so much. I've said this, time and time again, but I'm going to say it again. Thank you, Amy. I wouldn't've managed to feel alright about this test had it not been for your help, reassurance and the notes. Thank you so much. Hugs. I'm very greatful to God for having us meet on the bct list. Having you as a friend has been wonderful. You've helped me so much over the past while, it's been great. If you need anything, I'll be around. Least I can do considering what you've done for me.
Anyways, that's where I'm at right now. Amy's sent me a whole bunch of really great songs. I love them all! They're so pretty! And her voice sounds great too, especially when she sings. Anyways, that's that. Today was boring. I had English, French, Science and socials. I have a bad french accent but some people think contrary to that. Oh well, guess it's just one of those many self-esteem issues I have sometimes. We're starting films in English. Fun? Not really. Science. We're starting the circulatory system, so blood, blood vessels, cells, etc. Anyways, that's going to end my rant now. I appologize for the lack of updates. I just have had many things to do and haven't been motivated to update. Either that or I've been too busy. But I'm going to go now. And please, folks, please. Leave comments! I said noone was reading this, and I don't want to update for nothing lol. I'm kidding. But still, comments would be great. I miss seeing them on this page. |
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| Things, and more things |
[Nov. 10th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
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Yesterday was wonderful except for the evening, I had a shouting match with my Mom. I didn't care about it, however, the part which stands out is the fact that she said I didn't remember anything god she'd done for me. I was half way to saying I did remember, there were just too few things, and they were nothing realy major. I was enraged she said that. But I didn't. that's the only part that wounds me. My Mom can be really nice smetimes, but other times, she can be a total ***. That's pretty much all yesterday. Today, was actually pretty col. I love math, but not because of the subject. My teacher, MS. Noble, rules. She makes things just so easy t understand and she makes things realy fu at times to. But apart from that, I stil hate math loads. Then, at brake, someone let off a firecracker in the hall. We had to evacuate the building. Was great. Going to go now, talking to Amy and other things. All my friends are going through a bit of stress and I am more concerned about them than myself. I'm okay though, I'm more cncerned for all my frieds than myself. |
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| weird day |
[Oct. 28th, 2006|12:11 am] |
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Still up, so I'm going to write. Today was spent mostly at home. I talked to Amy and Tanya in the morning. Both of the poor girls have gone through surgery and are now going through the aftermath. Tanya had eye surgery which makes her eyes hurt like heck, and Amy had to get her wisdom teeth removed. I'll be praying for both of them. With Tanya as my girlfriend and with Amy as one of the closest friends I've got, I'm worried for both of them. Hugs to you both, and hope everything goes okay. Amy's feeling a bit better, so that's awesome. God be thanked. Hope Tanya feels better tomorrow. Love ya always. You too, Amy, as a close friend. See sentence before previous. I could never've dreamed for a better girlfriend. Tanya's just loads of laughs and really sweet and nice. Anyways, continuing... I had a filming project to go to today. It was more of a prep thing, no actual shooting yet. We just sat around and discussed schedules. Then we talked about our varying disabilities. I consider myself not disabled, but marred by occasional inconveniences. No major things.
So, we just started joking around with me and John, making a lot of jokes. The one that got everyone cracking up was when I mimed playing Mortal Kombat facing backwards. That's always one which makes people gasp and go like oh my god, the guy can play facing backwards! So what? I can do it. Pretty much it for now I guess. Going off to bed soo, and Hugs again to both Amy and Tanya. I'll be praying for the both of you. |
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| another little entry thing |
[Oct. 24th, 2006|07:55 pm] |
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Normal day today. School passed by as usual, boring and weird and losy and things. Got home, went on the comp for a bit. Still on right now. And one more thing. My Mom, being the odd person she is, was actually nice today. She was all cheerful and things. Meh, parents are strange. Amy's Mom left today and she has surgery tomorrow. Good luck Amy, hope you come out okay. Hugs. Kaitlyn, you too. I'm happy that you've finally found someone to love and someone who you can talk to. I really hope this one turns out okay for you. Me and Tanya are getting along really well. I'm surprised that I didn't realize in Calgary how much I love her. Oh well. I love her and we're doing really well. That's what matters. Anyways, I'm going to go away now and listen to old songs, practice for my choir test and stuff like that. xxoxxx! |
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| hey, again. |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|04:27 pm] |
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Well, my day was all around good til a few minutes ago. My sister didn't pick up the phone when I called so when she finally got home my Mom broke into this whole big thing with her and I. Something about responsibility as teenagers or whatever. Now, each time she forgets to come home ontime with me that means that amount of invitations to parties or to hang out with friends canceled. Ugh. As much as we don't get along, we sometimes do, but not often, I don't want her to go through this. I have no idea how I got tied into this. Apparently now, whenever I get my report card, if there are any marks below a C, that's one thing I like to do I miss out on. If I get two say c minuses, then that's two things I miss. Goalball, camp whatever I'll miss. Gosh I hate this. Why do asian parents have to be so hard on their kids? Do they think that's really going to help? It'd probably make things worse if anything. And my Mom made one more point. She said if we wanted to start being treated like teenagers, then act like one. That's absurd! Half the teenagers at school don't get home on time and their parents don't have a problem with it. What's more, half the school is Asian. Man, if I could do anything right now about this, I so would. But what can I do? I was having a good first few weeks back at school and now this happens. Is this ever going to stop? Well, I'm going away, need to let off steam and there's noone around to hear me rant.. |
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